THIS IS ME VENTING.
So, since 2015 I have been in and out of hospitals and it just seems that each year I progressively get worse and worse. Every year there's something new that triggers an episode where I spiral out of control and just lose my shit.
I don't truly know what's wrong with me, and I don't even think the labels doctors have given my state is even really everything? But I don't know why I get sad sometimes myself, or why I can be so happy one day then the next day I'm ready to die.
I'm talking about my mental illness. I have MDD with psychotic features, PTSD, GAD, panic disorder, and social anxiety disorder.
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